Welcome to Existence

Happy Monday people! I hope you enjoyed the long weekend better than I do =)

Sometimes I wonder, have I asked too much from my life? The long weekend hasn't really given me anything extraordinary, but a space enough to questions myself about the universe and my existence.

I was thinking about the decision that I had made to come back to KL, and leave behind my life in Sabah. I was spiritually dried back then, life became so stagnant for me and I felt a strong urge to come back to KL to be revive again.

Now that I'm here in KL, life wasn't all lollipops and cotton candy. I have more responsibilities and more things to take care of compared to back in Sabah - rental, bills, foods, time management and et cetera. In KL, I only have super less than what I have back home, and I get frustrated over it for many times now.

I can't go where I want to at anytime I wish, I don't have a good-to-go friends, I'm just a prisoner in my own incapability. I spend my long weekend like every ordinary weekend, and it's really pissed me off because I woke up in the morning hoping that it would somehow be different.

I guessed you just can't have everything in life to go according to your ways. I gave up a life in Sabah which I have a home to go back to, loving and caring parents to welcome me at home, an old car that can take me to anywhere I want at anytime I wish, friends that won't hesitate to hangout at anytime, natures, I can even have extra cash for savings...

In KL, I only have the house of God, more responsibilities and a job just barely enough to keep me survive each month. Haha, don't get me wrong. I'm not writing to complaint, but I just wanted to remind myself that there is always a price to pay for what I've wish for, and in all situations, I should learn to be thankful and learn to enjoy every moment of it.

Today, I've failed to learn to enjoy. Let's restart again tomorrow, shall we? =)

Until next time, see you around my friend!

Yours only:

Daniel Chiam from room8five

Understanding Your Infatuation

by Daniel Chiam

I know I have a guideline for almost everything in life. Including relationship. The reason why I was struggling through that period of time where I have an infatuation for a girl, is just simply because I know its not the right thing to do, as it was already way off course from the guideline that I have set.

Sometimes, the feeling of infatuation can be misunderstand as 'love' when it is actually only a temporary desire which is being triggered by the circumstances that's affecting you. Maybe you were lonely, you just got out of a bad relationship, or because it's just a peer pressure. 

If you could only understand where that feeling comes from, then you'll be able to determine whether you are actually in love or it's just merely an infatuation. I don't wish to get into a wrong relationship, which in the end just could not work out for the both of us.

Some of you might say, I shouldn't be afraid and just take the risk, some risk are worth taken, you never try you'll never know... Well, I have seen and heard a lot about the successful and the failure of one relationship among my circles of friends and their circles of friends. 

I know that everyone is different but some principals are still remain the same no matter who you are. Don't get me wrong, I'm not looking for a perfect girl for a perfect relationship, because I am not perfect also. I just wanted to find the one that I can start off in a right way and hopefully end up like every fairy tale stories - they live happily ever after.

"Seize the day, Caper Diem"

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Dare You to Move!

In life its always easier to give up sometimes. Its always a choice that seems so effortless. So convenient and so right. I am just an imperfect person. No one has the rights to accuse me for my imperfect decision, because no one is perfect. So don't tell me that everything is going to be okay. That it will all be fine.

Words of a men will never last. How can I be sure that eventually everything will be alright? Do you men have the power to determine my future? Or even the future of my next generation? I start to push away everyone that cares. Their comfort will only cause pain to me.

It was always an excuse I gave myself when I was down. When my world seems to be crumbling down. When nothing was suppose to be like I hope it to be. I felt that life is so unfair. Why does bad things always happened to me? I became bitter. I choose to give up.

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you", says the LORD, "thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope".

-Jeremiah 29:11

A future and a hope? Thoughts of peace and not of evil? but God... do I deserve all this? Where is the future and hope in all this? Why is this evil and not peace?

I complaint and I blame a lot at this stage, but today I realize the truth.

I believe everything happened for a reason, and that reason will only be revealed to us when we have the courage to be bold enough to trust in the Lord, and overcoming the mountain in front of us. Words of men might failed us, but Word of God will always stays the same yesterday, today and forever. 

I just needed to have faith to believe that the difficulty I'm going through, is a path for a greater testimony of my life. It will be my conviction to help others to overcome the same difficulty. My strength might be limited but with God, my strength is limitless, with God, I am a conqueror and I am an over-comer. 

You will face difficulty in your life. Once it happened, it will be unacceptable. Remember that God thinks about you and your future. Learn to see things through His eyes, and you will know why. It won't be easy but its your only way out.

I'm dedicating this for a friend of mine. I would like to see you overcome your difficulty and come back with an inspiring story to tell. How you encounter God and how He gives you strength and how He healed you in the end.

I dare you to move!

Have a blessed weekend everyone!

Yours only:

Daniel Chiam from room8five